Wednesday, January 4, 2012
♥ Missed A Day.
Hello Everybody!
So, I missed a day to blog. I know what your thinking. That I cheated all day long and felt to guilty to blog about it. Nope, you're wrong. Ye hath such little faith in me. *wink*The real reason was because I simply didn't have time to really blog. My oldest son is sick. He had horrible diarrhea and was vomiting. Plus, I had to prepare my day for work(which was today)Get laundry caught up, etc.
So today's discussion is about drinking more in points then what you would when you eat. I am so bad about this. I count them in, but it still takes away my food points to where I could eat and be full and not worry about cheating. I'm drinking water.However things like coffee,juice, and sometimes even tea you end up drinking way more in points then you intended. I have been very thirsty lately. So, I'll drink some water to help satisfy it but it doesn't work as good as juice or coffee. Especially in the morning with your breakfast or just your morning coffee. I am limiting myself to at least 2 cups of coffee. I do not like black coffee, and I can't stand to put skim milk in my coffee. By the time I put skim milk in it I would have more points then what creamer would be worth anyway.So I use maybe 2-4 packages of creamer. I know it is bad.
I also want to talk about the importance of stopping to take a bite. Literally, Stop and eat. Today the only thing I ate was one piece of bacon. I didn't get a chance to really sit down and eat. I usually sat down to drink, and rest then back at work I was again. When I came home I was still oddly enough not as hungry as I figured I would be. Until I swiped a nugget from one of my kids. I only had ONE. I stopped myself and was like you need to go eat something now! Still didn't really have time to slow down and eat. So, as I am writing this I am snacking on a granola bar. It is worth 4 points. If I had actually something cooked or was around something easy on hand. I probably would have cheated by now. That is why it is very important to actually stop and eat. A banana, An apple. Something quick and easy. I have baby carrots in my refrigerator so that when I am that hungry, I can just grab a carrot. Of course when I look in my refrigerator I see leftover mashed potatoes, and hamburger helper, and spaghetti (all things I have cooked for the kids, but I can't have!)
I have figured out a way though to slowly but surely trick my husband, and kids into eating healthy. I'm going to add stuff little by little. Like, replacing our regular bread with 35 bread. Maybe seeing if there is a healthier alternative to chicken nuggets. I can get my little one to eat just about anything.My oldest refuses to eat any kind of vegetable except green beans. As well as fruit. I need to look into getting a juicer.
So, what I plan on doing is: I am allowed to have around 34ish points. I need to set aside at least 10 of those points in liquids. If I continue to drink what I drink. Maybe further down the line I can substitute.
Anyway, that about sums about my thoughts and such. Until next time.
Awesome Loser
So, I missed a day to blog. I know what your thinking. That I cheated all day long and felt to guilty to blog about it. Nope, you're wrong. Ye hath such little faith in me. *wink*The real reason was because I simply didn't have time to really blog. My oldest son is sick. He had horrible diarrhea and was vomiting. Plus, I had to prepare my day for work(which was today)Get laundry caught up, etc.
So today's discussion is about drinking more in points then what you would when you eat. I am so bad about this. I count them in, but it still takes away my food points to where I could eat and be full and not worry about cheating. I'm drinking water.However things like coffee,juice, and sometimes even tea you end up drinking way more in points then you intended. I have been very thirsty lately. So, I'll drink some water to help satisfy it but it doesn't work as good as juice or coffee. Especially in the morning with your breakfast or just your morning coffee. I am limiting myself to at least 2 cups of coffee. I do not like black coffee, and I can't stand to put skim milk in my coffee. By the time I put skim milk in it I would have more points then what creamer would be worth anyway.So I use maybe 2-4 packages of creamer. I know it is bad.
I also want to talk about the importance of stopping to take a bite. Literally, Stop and eat. Today the only thing I ate was one piece of bacon. I didn't get a chance to really sit down and eat. I usually sat down to drink, and rest then back at work I was again. When I came home I was still oddly enough not as hungry as I figured I would be. Until I swiped a nugget from one of my kids. I only had ONE. I stopped myself and was like you need to go eat something now! Still didn't really have time to slow down and eat. So, as I am writing this I am snacking on a granola bar. It is worth 4 points. If I had actually something cooked or was around something easy on hand. I probably would have cheated by now. That is why it is very important to actually stop and eat. A banana, An apple. Something quick and easy. I have baby carrots in my refrigerator so that when I am that hungry, I can just grab a carrot. Of course when I look in my refrigerator I see leftover mashed potatoes, and hamburger helper, and spaghetti (all things I have cooked for the kids, but I can't have!)
I have figured out a way though to slowly but surely trick my husband, and kids into eating healthy. I'm going to add stuff little by little. Like, replacing our regular bread with 35 bread. Maybe seeing if there is a healthier alternative to chicken nuggets. I can get my little one to eat just about anything.My oldest refuses to eat any kind of vegetable except green beans. As well as fruit. I need to look into getting a juicer.
So, what I plan on doing is: I am allowed to have around 34ish points. I need to set aside at least 10 of those points in liquids. If I continue to drink what I drink. Maybe further down the line I can substitute.
Anyway, that about sums about my thoughts and such. Until next time.
Awesome Loser
2:49 PM
Monday, January 2, 2012
♥ I'm not grouchy, I'm hungry!!
The things we do to our bodies. You know, I have had quiet the experience with will power today. I talked myself out of most...I said most temptations. I have Italian in my blood. We love food. Okay, so maybe it isn't so much the Italian as much as it is those sneaky "fat genes"
So when your six year old comes home from school of course they are going to be starved. Yesterday I tried to pass off wheat bread to him, and he said that it tasted really bad. In fact his exact words was "There is something wrong with this bread mom, I think it's bad" I just had to laugh. I made spaghetti for "super" It is usually around 4ish when we eat because my husband works the late shift. I was good. I ate a smart ones spaghetti. Which really doesn't taste that bad. I had some corn in weight watchers butter sauce. And a slice of 35 bread. Which was really good. I enjoyed it. I started to crack when my son wanted me to make some cupcakes for our movie night. I haven't made cupcakes in forever!So, of course I said yes. One cupcake isn't going to hurt is what I told myself. So, one cupcake is what I had.
Now, don't be shaking your head. It was better for me to give into just one, rather then get frustrated and eat 2 or 3 during the night. I put a limit on myself. Just one. I counted it into my lovely points. For one small cupcake the points are about 12-16.
I question myself was that cupcake really worth it. Not really, but it did curve my sweet tooth by a lot. It did make me feel a tiny bit better. The things that food does to our body. Especially sweets. When we are upset, angry or sad instead of walking, or taking up something that makes us chill out, we stuff food in our mouths.Why because it is easier that way isn't it?
I was really cranky yesterday, and even some today. My son said "Mom why are you so cranky?" I replied in a frustrated voice" I'm not cranky, i'm hungry!"
I really don't understand my self much. How I can allow food to control me? How I have no willpower what so ever. How come when I was younger I could do this, and do it cheat free? I know tomorrow will be better. I just wanted to be cheat free for at least 4 weeks. Maybe tomorrow will start that journey. Let's keep our fingers crossed.
So when your six year old comes home from school of course they are going to be starved. Yesterday I tried to pass off wheat bread to him, and he said that it tasted really bad. In fact his exact words was "There is something wrong with this bread mom, I think it's bad" I just had to laugh. I made spaghetti for "super" It is usually around 4ish when we eat because my husband works the late shift. I was good. I ate a smart ones spaghetti. Which really doesn't taste that bad. I had some corn in weight watchers butter sauce. And a slice of 35 bread. Which was really good. I enjoyed it. I started to crack when my son wanted me to make some cupcakes for our movie night. I haven't made cupcakes in forever!So, of course I said yes. One cupcake isn't going to hurt is what I told myself. So, one cupcake is what I had.
Now, don't be shaking your head. It was better for me to give into just one, rather then get frustrated and eat 2 or 3 during the night. I put a limit on myself. Just one. I counted it into my lovely points. For one small cupcake the points are about 12-16.
I question myself was that cupcake really worth it. Not really, but it did curve my sweet tooth by a lot. It did make me feel a tiny bit better. The things that food does to our body. Especially sweets. When we are upset, angry or sad instead of walking, or taking up something that makes us chill out, we stuff food in our mouths.Why because it is easier that way isn't it?
I was really cranky yesterday, and even some today. My son said "Mom why are you so cranky?" I replied in a frustrated voice" I'm not cranky, i'm hungry!"
I really don't understand my self much. How I can allow food to control me? How I have no willpower what so ever. How come when I was younger I could do this, and do it cheat free? I know tomorrow will be better. I just wanted to be cheat free for at least 4 weeks. Maybe tomorrow will start that journey. Let's keep our fingers crossed.
2:17 PM
♥ Well, Day two.
Morning everybody! It is day two.Last night was the hardest for me. I think I went over my points by like 3-maybe 4 but it was nothing bad, things like carrots, and stuff like that. I got so hungry before bed time I was getting super cranky. I can't stand it when I'm grumpy. I bought a loaf of bread yesterday, and it is almost gone. The kids have had sandwiches as well as my husband. They didn't like the bread but they ate it. I'm thinking I'll continue to buy my diet bread,for everyone. Food is very expensive especially when your on a diet!!No wonder why we are all so fat!
Today's topic is about rather you would spend the money to get a tummy tuck or a skin tuck of some kind. According to my sister each tuck is like 1000 dollars (except the tummy)I have several tucks to be made when I lose weight. It would probably cost me around 10,000 to get all the work done I needed. Which is crazy!I can think of alot more things to spend that 10 grand on. I think i'll just stick with my lose nasty skin. If my husband was willing to stay with me as big as I am now, he will be willing to stay with me with all of the flab hanging!I could fold it, or something right?haha.
You have to take these moments with laughter because if you stay too serious on this diet your going to end up being one cranky beyotch. I know I will be.
Anyway, Hopefully today I'll stay on track, actually get to the tredmill and walk my happy ass for 30 minutes. Hopefully.......keep your fingers crossed.
-Awesome Loser
Today's topic is about rather you would spend the money to get a tummy tuck or a skin tuck of some kind. According to my sister each tuck is like 1000 dollars (except the tummy)I have several tucks to be made when I lose weight. It would probably cost me around 10,000 to get all the work done I needed. Which is crazy!I can think of alot more things to spend that 10 grand on. I think i'll just stick with my lose nasty skin. If my husband was willing to stay with me as big as I am now, he will be willing to stay with me with all of the flab hanging!I could fold it, or something right?haha.
You have to take these moments with laughter because if you stay too serious on this diet your going to end up being one cranky beyotch. I know I will be.
Anyway, Hopefully today I'll stay on track, actually get to the tredmill and walk my happy ass for 30 minutes. Hopefully.......keep your fingers crossed.
-Awesome Loser
7:55 AM
Sunday, January 1, 2012
♥ It is just the beginning.
So far today has been good. I am hungry but I don't believe I am hungry I think I am just really used to stuffing my face with pasta, bread, and sweets.
I slept through breakfast and ended up eating a 7 point lunch. I had some Smart Ones Lasagna. For supper I had a turkey sandwhich on whole wheat bread with lettuce and tomatoes. I had some fresh carrots, and a slice of cheese, and 1 teaspoon of ranch dipping sauce for my carrots. The dipping sauce was a bit of a bad choice, as well as the cheese, but I counted it in my points. I had a 10 point super. Somewhere in there I had a half of a yogurt which was 1 point. The yogurt was nasty haha.
So, far total has been 18 points. I plan on having a cup of popcorn later which will total my points out at about 23. Which is awesome considering I'm allowed to have 30 points.
I slept through breakfast and ended up eating a 7 point lunch. I had some Smart Ones Lasagna. For supper I had a turkey sandwhich on whole wheat bread with lettuce and tomatoes. I had some fresh carrots, and a slice of cheese, and 1 teaspoon of ranch dipping sauce for my carrots. The dipping sauce was a bit of a bad choice, as well as the cheese, but I counted it in my points. I had a 10 point super. Somewhere in there I had a half of a yogurt which was 1 point. The yogurt was nasty haha.
So, far total has been 18 points. I plan on having a cup of popcorn later which will total my points out at about 23. Which is awesome considering I'm allowed to have 30 points.
2:46 PM
♥ Happy 2012
For the past two weeks, I kept telling myself "On the 1st of January you will go on your diet, you don't have any other choice but too" While I know everyone loves me for who I am, and the these I do. I can't stand myself. That is pretty hard to suffice when you know you can't stand to be around yourself. When I eat, I hate myself even more. I walk by a mirror, I try not to glance at the mirror because I know I will be grossed out. I have stopped caring about my outer appearance as well. Sweat pants, shirts, sweet shirts, Anything to hide the excess baggage that I have!
It is sad when you dislike yourself that much. When you know emotionally you are a good person. But physically you really suck. It messes with everything around you. Your children, your family. Everyone. My husband would never dare call me fat. I'd punch him in the face. But I can see the look he gives me when I look at my worse. He loves me, but he wishes I was smaller.
My sex drive is non-existent and it's pretty much because I can't stand to hear or feel my skin drop, or clap, or whatever else it does during sex.My husband says he doesn't care but he is missing the point. Of course a man doesn't care. As long as they bury there hard drive they are fine with whatever opens their legs. I can't be into sex if I am emotionally and physically messed up over being so big. He will never understand this. That is a man for you though.
Every time I see my dad he always makes a fat joke at me. Which is funny because my dad is a lot bigger then me, and has every health problem you can imagine. He will say things that hurts really bad. It used to not hurt because he would say it between me and him, but now he does it in front of my husband, and that makes me feel really horrible. Things like good god you are getting so big, or honey its time to go on a diet, or is that fat free?Or what is wrong with you,why are you so big? Things like that really stab you in the heart. I'm sure it is his way of saying, You know you really don't need to do this to yourself.
Growing up I was always a chunky kid. I was always made fun of for having extra weight. Then in 2003 I decided I was sick of it. It took me a year but I lost 100lbs I was so happy with myself. I felt good, I was hardly ever in pain. I just loved every part of myself. I got pregnant and packed on that 100lbs plus more. The second time I got pregnant I packed on another 50 pounds. You can imagine how big I am now.
Anyway, this isn't a sad story. This is just me starting a journey. I vow that everyday I will at least try to do some form of exerciser. I will blog my progress. I will take pictures!And I will try the very hardest to struggle and commit myself to this diet.
It is sad when you dislike yourself that much. When you know emotionally you are a good person. But physically you really suck. It messes with everything around you. Your children, your family. Everyone. My husband would never dare call me fat. I'd punch him in the face. But I can see the look he gives me when I look at my worse. He loves me, but he wishes I was smaller.
My sex drive is non-existent and it's pretty much because I can't stand to hear or feel my skin drop, or clap, or whatever else it does during sex.My husband says he doesn't care but he is missing the point. Of course a man doesn't care. As long as they bury there hard drive they are fine with whatever opens their legs. I can't be into sex if I am emotionally and physically messed up over being so big. He will never understand this. That is a man for you though.
Every time I see my dad he always makes a fat joke at me. Which is funny because my dad is a lot bigger then me, and has every health problem you can imagine. He will say things that hurts really bad. It used to not hurt because he would say it between me and him, but now he does it in front of my husband, and that makes me feel really horrible. Things like good god you are getting so big, or honey its time to go on a diet, or is that fat free?Or what is wrong with you,why are you so big? Things like that really stab you in the heart. I'm sure it is his way of saying, You know you really don't need to do this to yourself.
Growing up I was always a chunky kid. I was always made fun of for having extra weight. Then in 2003 I decided I was sick of it. It took me a year but I lost 100lbs I was so happy with myself. I felt good, I was hardly ever in pain. I just loved every part of myself. I got pregnant and packed on that 100lbs plus more. The second time I got pregnant I packed on another 50 pounds. You can imagine how big I am now.
Anyway, this isn't a sad story. This is just me starting a journey. I vow that everyday I will at least try to do some form of exerciser. I will blog my progress. I will take pictures!And I will try the very hardest to struggle and commit myself to this diet.
9:27 AM
